Tuesday, October 21, 2008
today i am washing and folding and packing all the clothes the boybarians wore at about 4-5 years old. the jeans that are still in great condition, endless t-shirts that aren't faded or worn, hanna striped jammies worn every christmas, a land's end jacket that looks nearly new after two boys have been through it already.
i do this about once a year for my goddess son, le petit prince. i started with the baby stuff, moved up to 18-24 mos., 2T, 3T, and now the 4Ts. i've got bags in the closet ready to go as he grows.
as i fold each little t-shirt and shake out each pair of jeans i am reminded of my boys when they were small. well, smaller. they are still small. aren't they?
well, maybe not. but i suppose they will always be small to me.
also today i am researching all that i will need to homeschool the duke (and then wingman) through high school to ensure him the best possible chance at getting into the college of his choice, should he choose college after high school, while also ensuring that he's eligible for scholarships.
it seems early, but it isn't. it's never too early to plan ahead when it's your head that has to navigate them through.
a special challenge is his desire to take part in a state program wherein the last two years of high school he can take college classes for both high school AND college credit.
so i wash and fold and pack away part of his youth as i navigate how to best see him successfully to young adulthood. at least academically wise. i haven't even begun to figure out how i'm going to actually parent a teenager, let alone two teenagers, let alone successfully.
you always think when they are still sleeping with you or peeing their pants or forgetting their jackets at preschool that it will be "easier" as they get older. that "less" will be required of you.
but folding those clothes today the feeling i had was not unlike folding those clothes and diapers getting ready for them to be born.
and i'll you in on a little secret, it wasn't any "easier."
and i suspect it won't get any "easier." and i suspect that so much more than i could ever imagine will be required of me.
and now because we all need it, and because i'm on a video roll (oh, yeah, it's a video with sound.)
yes we carve.