so he's been gone since sunday morning...a business road trip to the central and northern parts of california took him away and brings him back tonight...
and while he was gone i opened the door one early morning to the ups guy and in less time than it took for the tour de france to fall apart i was the shocked and happy recipient of a brand spankin' new dell laptop!!
just his way of saying it's time for me to get serious and write.
gulp.
not only that, but we had THE most delicious wine last friday at my birthday dinner that we learned we could not get around here...not so oddly enough it came from very near where i grew up...
so he tracked down the winery on his road trip and the liquor store that sells their wine!!
without falling victim to the gush, i am a very lucky woman to have such a partner in this life...
and it's not about the gifts, because as a couple we rarely exchange gifts and thus don't put much emphasis on them...
it's about the intent behind the gift...the idea that someone knows what you need/want and works hard and puts in effort to see that you get it...
even if you yourself find every reason on earth why it's too expensive or extravagant or i'll make do with what i have or the all around and all purpose, i don't deserve it.
if you couldn't guess already, that's my favorite one...
i exist fully within a poverty mentality...and while this is practical when money is tight or non-existent, it hampers me in so many ways on a daily living breathing existing basis...
i don't need a laptop or a case of my favorite wine.
but if i want to write seriously i have to leave the house.
and that wine was damn good.
so there you have it.
and perhaps one day i will acknowledge that i do deserve it...that i am worthy of gifting no matter how large or small...
in fact this birthday i received so many wonderful things...so many wonderful wishes from people who care...i rarely get gifts, so this was sweet and unexpected...
the stainless steel, gorgeous enough to sit on my counter and has a filter, compost bucket from my dear friend rj...who knows i have wanted one and would never spend that kind of money on myself...(myself, for a household compost bucket...i'm such a cancer girl)
or the beautifully charming box of handmade chocolates from my friend the georgia peach...sent overnight from a place i would never have cause to sample from...the sweetest part a teeny tiny white chocolate mouse with a gorgeous little red satin tail...
and from the bag lady in paris, a beautiful over three foot tall statue of the virgin mary for my garden...i see her every time i look out the window and i feel safe and honored and blessed by her presence...
and the presence of all of those in my life who care so much to honor me so...
and again, it's not about the gifts...it's about the love...
it's a beautiful day out and it's the weekend...school starts monday and the pencils are sharpened and the books are waiting to be cracked...
i wish you all a wonderful weekend and the hope that you have someone who does something nice for you...
and if you don't, then i hope you do something nice for someone else...
kindness is meant to be passed along and meant to be shared.
and in that vein, i shall think of you while sipping my abundance vineyards abundantly rich red vintage 2004, and perhaps the next time we meet it will be from my "mobile office".
x.
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